23 April 2009: Day 4

Signing off for, at least, four days.

Breakfast
Grande, no foam latte (2% milk), 1 cup plain oatmeal with brown sugar

Lunch
2 1/2 chicken tacos with guac from Chipotle, 3 chips

Snack
Grande, decaf, no foam latte (2% milk)

Dinner
2 glasses white wine
2 ham patties, 2 hard boiled egg whites, a handful of broccoli

Since I'm signing off for four days, does that mean I'm off the diet?

Nah.

22 April 2009: Day 3

Another quick post. But, I'd like to thank Bernie (Thank you, sweetie!), for giving me some info on calories and for your support! And, Becky, size 1(?!) (Know that a lot of ladies out there probably wish that your fear is their dream, sweetheart.) And, to my Jamie, I wish we were still going to the classes that we attended before. We totally kicked ass!

Breakfast
Grande, no foam latte (2% milk), 1/2 cup plain oatmeal with 1 teaspoon brown sugar

Snack
1 hard boiled egg

Lunch
1/2 serving cheeseburger and fries

Snack
Tall, decaf, no foam latte (2% milk), 1 hard boiled egg

Dinner
2 glasses white wine
4(?) oz salmon with 7 shrimps, a bite of George's yummy giardiniera cheeseburger

Dessert
1 red m&m from Jacinta

I can see that, today, I indulge a little too much. Really, I am on a diet.

P.S.
I just read Miss Jocelynne's comment... and, Jocelynne, I did want to comment to you how I thought you did lose weight, but I didn't want to point it out [to you and/or in public. Well, I didn't want there to be any awkwardness, you see. :-)] I'll check out the sites that you sent. And, you look wonderful and you inspire me! Thank you, darling.

21 April 2009: Day 2

A quick post. Packing. And, Jacinta has a little boo-boo on her forehead.

Breakfast
Grande, no foam latte (2% milk)

Snack
1 hard boiled egg

Lunch
(The other) 1/2 serving of: kefta kabob chicken, baba ghanoush, rice

Snack
Tall, decaf, no foam latte (2% milk)

Dinner
2 glasses white wine
2 ham patties, 2 hard-boiled eggs (ate one yolk only), 1 stalk broccoli

Georgie just commented that I really need to switch to a leaner protein diet. Well, I don't see this happening until after we fucking move.

20 April 2009: Day 1

I'm very thankful to everyone who responded positively to my me project. There are definitely many options from you that I would like to try from signing up with Weight Watchers to eating every two hours.

After our move, I will be going back to the gym. I'm pretty excited about this because when I use to work out with Jamie I felt really good and strong. I know that I will not do any form of running -- I just can't take it. I'm more into the exercise classes like step aerobics and/or kickboxing combined with weight training. They're so fun!

Today wasn't as bad as I expected it would be. I wish I could say that the reason is because I have such unwavering will power. But, alas, it was just because I had too much work which preoccupied my mind against the usual cravings.

I did learn something today though -- I definitely need to eat something for breakfast. Any ideas?

Breakfast
Grande, no foam latte (2% milk)

Lunch
1/2 serving of: kefta kabob chicken, baba ghanoush, rice, cucumber salad

Snack
Tall, decaf, no foam latte (2% milk)

Dinner
2 glasses white wine
1 hamburger patty, 2 hard-boiled eggs, 1 stalk broccoli

The Night Before

Well, here I am.

I decided to start on a 'me' project, starting with losing inches all around -- hopefully the weight tags along with the inches!

I know that it will be so fucking hard that I will probably do the usual thing when I'm drinking wine and just say, "Oh, I feel so good I'm just gonna enjoy my food and eat just a little more." This usually ends up with my eating a lot more than I thought I would because the wine makes me feels soooo good. It just does.

But, I also know that when I have a good buzz I still have my senses in tact. I know what is right and what is wrong, but I just choose the wrong because it just feels soooo good.

I have always wanted to be a certain weight. I think the charts in the doctor's office say that I should probably 'weigh' between 130-135 pounds. That must mean that I am 30 (that's THIRTY!) pounds overweight. Because the last time I went to get my physical, about a month and a half ago, I weighed 166 pounds. I must be at 170 now because I've been feeling pretty good.

So, here I go. Ya, I'm one of those people who say, "tomorrow, I will start" because tonight is for enjoyment. What do I think I'm enjoying? Well, I'm enjoying not having to choose, I guess. Making a choice is the hardest decision, after all. Not having to choose between eating this and not eating this.

I must admit that I am not willing to give up one vice; my wine. At least, not in the immediate future.

It is my hope that by keeping a journal -- a public journal -- I can accomplish my goal. I do need people to support me, to encourage me, to yell at me when I need it.

Onward then. Who's with me?