Well, here I am.
I decided to start on a 'me' project, starting with losing inches all around -- hopefully the weight tags along with the inches!
I know that it will be so fucking hard that I will probably do the usual thing when I'm drinking wine and just say, "Oh, I feel so good I'm just gonna enjoy my food and eat just a little more." This usually ends up with my eating a lot more than I thought I would because the wine makes me feels soooo good. It just does.
But, I also know that when I have a good buzz I still have my senses in tact. I know what is right and what is wrong, but I just choose the wrong because it just feels soooo good.
I have always wanted to be a certain weight. I think the charts in the doctor's office say that I should probably 'weigh' between 130-135 pounds. That must mean that I am 30 (that's THIRTY!) pounds overweight. Because the last time I went to get my physical, about a month and a half ago, I weighed 166 pounds. I must be at 170 now because I've been feeling pretty good.
So, here I go. Ya, I'm one of those people who say, "tomorrow, I will start" because tonight is for enjoyment. What do I think I'm enjoying? Well, I'm enjoying not having to choose, I guess. Making a choice is the hardest decision, after all. Not having to choose between eating this and not eating this.
I must admit that I am not willing to give up one vice; my wine. At least, not in the immediate future.
It is my hope that by keeping a journal -- a public journal -- I can accomplish my goal. I do need people to support me, to encourage me, to yell at me when I need it.
Onward then. Who's with me?
I decided to start on a 'me' project, starting with losing inches all around -- hopefully the weight tags along with the inches!
I know that it will be so fucking hard that I will probably do the usual thing when I'm drinking wine and just say, "Oh, I feel so good I'm just gonna enjoy my food and eat just a little more." This usually ends up with my eating a lot more than I thought I would because the wine makes me feels soooo good. It just does.
But, I also know that when I have a good buzz I still have my senses in tact. I know what is right and what is wrong, but I just choose the wrong because it just feels soooo good.
I have always wanted to be a certain weight. I think the charts in the doctor's office say that I should probably 'weigh' between 130-135 pounds. That must mean that I am 30 (that's THIRTY!) pounds overweight. Because the last time I went to get my physical, about a month and a half ago, I weighed 166 pounds. I must be at 170 now because I've been feeling pretty good.
So, here I go. Ya, I'm one of those people who say, "tomorrow, I will start" because tonight is for enjoyment. What do I think I'm enjoying? Well, I'm enjoying not having to choose, I guess. Making a choice is the hardest decision, after all. Not having to choose between eating this and not eating this.
I must admit that I am not willing to give up one vice; my wine. At least, not in the immediate future.
It is my hope that by keeping a journal -- a public journal -- I can accomplish my goal. I do need people to support me, to encourage me, to yell at me when I need it.
Onward then. Who's with me?
great blog mrm - i'm with you! i still have 20 lbs to lose for my baby weight - 1 year later! That's disgusting! I need motiviation too. I ran 5 miles 2 days ago, snorkeled yesterday and ran another 5 today. I need to keep this up when I get back otherwise they will have to widen the doorways for my large a$$. "just keep swimmming, just keep swimming"...
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